feelings

yesterday was another bad day

it's my mistake for not braking

if i blame it on the lady driver

it's her fault for turning so early at the junction

made me take a hard left then a hard right back to be on my way

the nissan frontier was parked at the side

my attention was on the bumper

missed out the kangaroo bar in front of it

the impact was hard

lucky i was slow enough

unlucky that i broke my friend's car left signal light and cracked the bumper

bummer..

bad luck has been following me since before christmas until now

i kept on going strong

keep thinking that it'll be over sooner or later

things will turn out fine again

disaster after disaster

tragedy after tragedy

it's still not over

damage to my wallet

damage to my body

damage to my feelings

hope i still have my sanity

mental breakdown is just across the line

any bad feelings

i wish to discard

simplest way is to say it out

but who to talk with?

who to share my feeling with?

that's a tough choice

family?

relatives?

friends?

mates?

is there anyone?

the ones closest to me now are my housemates

most topics we talked about have almost nothing to do with personal feelings

closest to it is only personal experience

many are about cars, games, movies, crap, nonsense, bullshit, girls?!

i can either be laughed at, teased upon

or even be made a main topic when the issue is brought up later

sometimes i even chose to ignore or keep quiet

to avoid the unwanted feelings and treatment

talking back always end up backfired

why waste my breath and energy?

that's why i kept most of my feelings to myself

sometimes i share them with tai lou or ah soon

these two are the most acceptable kind

at least i'm more comfortable sharing with them

both also shared some thoughts with me

it has a nice feeling in it

somewhat friendly

i wont have to worry or think much

just voice out what's on my heart

it's easy to get someone to talk to

but it ain't easy to get someone who understands how you feel

someone who is willing to listen

someone who is willing to share

someone who is willing to accept

what we have in mind

what we feel that is sad

what we feel that is bad

someone we call

a true friend..