things to think about

everyday when we wake up, we have a choice to make

go back to sleep and dream again

or get up and make our dream come true

which one will you choose?

another choice in life
you love a person
but your parents object your relationship with that person
who would you choose?
the person who will be with you for the rest of your life?
or the person who give life to you?

advice to myself

take the first step, the rest will follow

nothing will happen if the first step is not taken

don't think too much about what will happen

make it happen first

we may fail when we try, but never fail to try

if we try, there is a chance to fail

but if we don't try, there is never a chance for success

there is no other freedom better than being able to take control of our life

let us be the one to decide how our life will be

let us decide what to do next

let us decide which road in life we're going to take

let us make our dream come true

mid term break

today is officially the starting of my one week long mid term break

didn't plan to go back to hometown because of money

didn't plan to follow my friends to Langkawi because of money

this time, it's all because of money

my plan is shifted towards these:

get plenty of sleep that i lack during the first part of the semester

get more time to rest and relax

eat simple and let my body detox with the hope to gain weight after that

rename all the albums i've downloaded and all crammed up in my drive

attend some talks to fill the time and learn something useful

the rest of the time i still have to commit to my studies

received a report assignment before the break and
having a test at the first day after the holidays

semiconductor, a subject i don't quite understand

together with DSP (digital signal processing)

how am i going to tackle these two subject during finals?

that is a question i must answer ASAP

and now, time to relax.. hehe..

Happy holidays to myself and all Uniten students

see you all back in class after next week

for pc users

for all of us pc users out here

long duration of time in front of our pc screen is very tiring

let your eyes rest once in a while

do some stretching or exercise too

here's a simple one for you

 

and here's one to test your eyesight

don't blame me if u cant see the bottom last two lines clearly

i've already tried to get the highest resolution picture

and i've set it to the largest size to display

blame it on your eyes

hehe..

time to let them rest

lol

that's all

feelings

yesterday was another bad day

it's my mistake for not braking

if i blame it on the lady driver

it's her fault for turning so early at the junction

made me take a hard left then a hard right back to be on my way

the nissan frontier was parked at the side

my attention was on the bumper

missed out the kangaroo bar in front of it

the impact was hard

lucky i was slow enough

unlucky that i broke my friend's car left signal light and cracked the bumper

bummer..

bad luck has been following me since before christmas until now

i kept on going strong

keep thinking that it'll be over sooner or later

things will turn out fine again

disaster after disaster

tragedy after tragedy

it's still not over

damage to my wallet

damage to my body

damage to my feelings

hope i still have my sanity

mental breakdown is just across the line

any bad feelings

i wish to discard

simplest way is to say it out

but who to talk with?

who to share my feeling with?

that's a tough choice

family?

relatives?

friends?

mates?

is there anyone?

the ones closest to me now are my housemates

most topics we talked about have almost nothing to do with personal feelings

closest to it is only personal experience

many are about cars, games, movies, crap, nonsense, bullshit, girls?!

i can either be laughed at, teased upon

or even be made a main topic when the issue is brought up later

sometimes i even chose to ignore or keep quiet

to avoid the unwanted feelings and treatment

talking back always end up backfired

why waste my breath and energy?

that's why i kept most of my feelings to myself

sometimes i share them with tai lou or ah soon

these two are the most acceptable kind

at least i'm more comfortable sharing with them

both also shared some thoughts with me

it has a nice feeling in it

somewhat friendly

i wont have to worry or think much

just voice out what's on my heart

it's easy to get someone to talk to

but it ain't easy to get someone who understands how you feel

someone who is willing to listen

someone who is willing to share

someone who is willing to accept

what we have in mind

what we feel that is sad

what we feel that is bad

someone we call

a true friend..

double disappointment

went to Mines last nite

ah soon went there to get his phone battery claimed and to get a new phone charger

i followed to get a new battery for my old phone

sounds ironic

that's what i hoped for

my old motorola V360 is dead

the charger is not spoilt

the battery still gives a 4.5V reading when i tested it with soon's multimeter

which means my handset is "gone cased"

i kept on believing that it's the battery's problem

the phone can't charge

tested with another charger and it still won't work

after testing it with a new battery

it all comes to a conclusion

my phone is dead

disappointment strike me

lost my new phone

and now my old phone was out of service

R.I.P my both phones

then it came to my mind

what if the stupid malay/foreign worker

sold my phone to one of the booths in Mines?

what if i found my phone lying inside one of the counters?

what if i can prove that the phone is mine?

i still have the box and the serial number of my phone

disappointment strike me again

after scanning through most of the booths

i found nothing

together with the discouragement from my companions

i gave up searching

there's nothing i can do

i feel so helpless

at least let me see my phone again

after parting for so long

at least let me try getting it back

at least..

i'm regretting that i didn't guard my phone nicely that day

new year hike

on the second day of 2010

we went hill climbing

thanks to the suggestion of 'fei mui'

our goal was the sunrise view on the peak of Broga hill

it's in Broga itself, in Semenyih, somewhere near Nottingham University

the plan was to get up at 4am

went to bed at 2am

gosh! only two hours of sleep?!

anyhow, woke up at 4am

me and soon and fei mui who woke me

three of us have another mission

waking the others up is our mission impossible

left my apartment at 5am

only to discover tai lou has been waiting for us since 4am

so sorry..

the trip to Broga hill only took us about half an hour

almost no traffic on the way there

saw a whole bunch of people already there

a large group with cartons of drinking water

how are those people going to bring all of that while climbing?

walked in the dark

with only light from our torches

we started the climb

the first part is the palm plantation

then from flat road to steps up the slope

through the jungle and across meadows of tall grass

we reached the first(lowest) peak

panting and gasping for air

it's been a long time since my last hill climb

been losing my strenght and stamina

quite a nice view of street lights and buildings from far

a lot of people took out their DSLR cameras to take pictures

which reminded me about my lost phone T-T

i'll be back again next time with another phone someday!!

everything just stay as it was until then

continued the climb as soon as the others catch up to the first peak

moving fast as it was almost time for sunrise

and we have one more peak to conquer

before reaching the highest one

raced with tai lou on the way up

me with my bag (water, wallet, tissue, extra t-shirt)

tai lou with two bags (one bag with water and his stuff, another for camera)

obviously i have the advantage

but tai lou has the biceps and triceps

which makes us equal

took different trails up but end up in the same main route

the junctions are redundant

but to us it's fun

reached to highest peak at 630am
only to see a campsite taking up the whole opening on the peak

not a square inch of space left on the ground

the group of people who went up earlier than us was there

on the large rocks surrounding the peak

our group have to squeeze in together with them

hock and fei mui didn't want to squeeze

so they went down to second peak and stayed there the whole time

me and soon found a secluded spot

on a rock under the big rock where everyone was on

it has a flat surface

supporting itself on the slope

enough room for maximum of three

sufficient enough for the two of us

sat there, relax, ate breakfast

sandwich made by fei mui the night before

tuna spread on high5 bread

not very nice but appetite pleasing

talked and waited for sunrise at 7am

it rained the night before

the air was cool and damp

perfect weather for hill climbing

the setback was the clouds in the sky

it was cloudy cause of the rain

blocked the view where the sun will rise

the break of dawn marks the starting of the shutter sounds

cameras snapping every moment and every angle

making adjustments and taking pictures again and again

the whole peak is busy

under the daylight

i saw the camp occupants packing up to leave

they were malays!!

again, another reason for me to hate them

brainless, selfish fools

only know how to do things on their own convenience

never think about others who will be sharing the place

while waiting for the crowd to leave first

saw an adult guy climbed up a tree to take picture

how dare he declare himself on the highest peak

i climbed up after he left and conquered the highest peak on a tree

hehe..

went down to the second peak to join hock and fei mui

at the same time to look for a small gadget from tai lou's tripod

he lost it on the way up

took group pictures on the first peak before we leave

everyone jumped like crazy for the camera to get the best snap

going up was hard, going down was piece of cake

a few skip and hops

we'll reach the bottom in no time

unless if you slipped, then you'll end up in hospital serdang

i reached bottom late for i helped a family on the way

slept the whole day and the next day after went back

it was tiring

it was fun

nice view

nice feeling

nice exercise

nice experience

will be back again

new year resolution

i know it's kinda late for my new year resolution

due to some inevitable complications (or i rather say, excuses)

here they are:

i) live a more healthy life style (more fruits and vege)

ii) try to keep away from cigarettes and alcohol (i'll do my best)

iii) pay more attention in class (kinda hard with this sem's lecturers)
iv) rest more (sleep)

v) more outings (outdoor activities)

vi) study more (no last minutes)

vii) forgive the unforgiven

viii) do more good deeds (do less bad deeds)

ix) plan my future

x) work hard for my future

that's all i can squeeze out of my sleepy mind for now

so much for getting more sleep (iv).. xp